and the list keeps growing...

I feel so selfish being so emotional and filled w/ all kinds of thoughts...

The list of folks to pray for keeps growing and growing.. It saddens me. I am worried that 2012 will not just be a year filled w/ excitement such as weddings and babies.. but I worry about the grief it may bring too. I know that if God brings you to it, He'll bring you thru it.. It's hard to be thankful when people you know and love are in pain.

Here is what my list of DAILY prayers contains.....

Dad~ been having issues w/ stomach and feeling sick.
Gpa Walter~ tumor on kidney, needs removal.
Pap Wagner~ lymphoma cancer, taking chemo and getting over pnemonia
Ken R~ support in prayer for life & being supportive to Pap W.
Rose G ~ kidney tumor & the options to come.

I have several friends that I pray for daily, for different reasons.. those I'll withhold names because they're too numerous to list.. AND I get a DAILY list from my friend / brother Butch Woolsey w/ others that I pray for on the spot.

Weddings being planned for 2012 and 2013~~ joyous and blessed!
Babies being born in 2012.. AND those trying!!! <3
*Monica, Becca, Marlene* Jen had her baby :)

I pray for the guy I dated in Dec. I hope that life is treating him well and that he continues to grow and be well. **to which I saw him today. I was just the same as always w/ him. it's so hard to think that he dropped me like a hot potato. I even said to myself, "why are u nice to him?" and I heard "because what would Jesus do?" sigh.. maturity. sucks sometimes!**


I pray for my parents.. my children.. my co-workers & their families. There is a lot of people that I pray for that I've met through my job and where I live.. I pray for the widow of John Weaver, she's a sweetheart and her life has changed drastically. I pray for my neighbor, dealing w/ losing her husband just before Christmas. There's been many tragedies in da'burg lately and I pray for the friends and families involved..

I pray for the EMTs, nurses, doctors, and the surgeons that God guides their hands, hearts, and minds.

I pray for our military ~ bring them home safely and let them know they are loved and appreciated.

I also pray for the government.. a big change is in order and I pray that God intercedes and starts righting the wrongs and putting people in that will be JUST and FAIR instead of corrupt and greedy.

These are just scratching the surface! At any given moment I'll remember someone I've forgotten and ask God to watch over them.. I ask for forgiveness for being so stupid and selfish and so human.. I forget what I'm here for and what God wants me to do gets clouded by the wickedness around me.. and I get sad. I can only imagine how God must feel when we turn our backs on Him.. sad times infinity! I pray I never turn my back on Him ever again. I'd be hopelessly lost w/out Him.

Rant.. Rave.. and Inspire!!!

Just want to put this out there to those of you going thru something that MIGHT cripple you into believing that it will never get any better... several years ago the WORST thing ever!!!! happened to me & my family. I made a decision, loved someone blindly and SERIOUSLY took my family to the edge of DESTRUCTION because of it..  did this stop me from living? or trying to better the quality of life around me & my children? Did it stop me from believing in my GOD~ my Savior! the one that rescued me from the darkest time of our lives?! NO!!!! is my life much better now?! YES!!!! do I still have hope ?? YES!!!! Would I recognize a bad situation like that if it ever tried to happen again ? YES!!!!! It's up to US!!! God gives us FREE WILL for a reason because He wants US to be STRONG in HIM and have faith in Him and OURSELVES to LEARN!!!!!! from our mistakes and shortcomings in life and do EVERYTHING we can to fix it and RELY on God's help & blessings to accomplish it. Yes, I've been married 3 times.. Yes, I've been divorced 3 times.. YES I've been born again many times.. Yes, I've had ups / downs w/ my family, friends, and co-workers.. DOES THAT STOP ME FROM MOVING ON?! NO!!!!!!!! Life will hand us some of the crappiest things because Satan is trying to keep us from doing what God wants us to do.. I'm sorry Satan, but you've lost this battle NOW AND ALWAYS WILL!!!! Jesus died for me, shed blood & sacrificed Himself so YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME. So, if I have to suck it up, deal with it, accept it, and keep moving on.. SO BE IT! God's "got my 6" so I can hold my head up and keep looking forward to better days ahead when things don't go so poorly. THANK YOU JESUS!!!! You're my ROCK, my SWORD, and my SHIELD!!! AMEN!

~~Good things can't grow w/out a little fertilizer!!!!~~