and the list keeps growing...

I feel so selfish being so emotional and filled w/ all kinds of thoughts...

The list of folks to pray for keeps growing and growing.. It saddens me. I am worried that 2012 will not just be a year filled w/ excitement such as weddings and babies.. but I worry about the grief it may bring too. I know that if God brings you to it, He'll bring you thru it.. It's hard to be thankful when people you know and love are in pain.

Here is what my list of DAILY prayers contains.....

Dad~ been having issues w/ stomach and feeling sick.
Gpa Walter~ tumor on kidney, needs removal.
Pap Wagner~ lymphoma cancer, taking chemo and getting over pnemonia
Ken R~ support in prayer for life & being supportive to Pap W.
Rose G ~ kidney tumor & the options to come.

I have several friends that I pray for daily, for different reasons.. those I'll withhold names because they're too numerous to list.. AND I get a DAILY list from my friend / brother Butch Woolsey w/ others that I pray for on the spot.

Weddings being planned for 2012 and 2013~~ joyous and blessed!
Babies being born in 2012.. AND those trying!!! <3
*Monica, Becca, Marlene* Jen had her baby :)

I pray for the guy I dated in Dec. I hope that life is treating him well and that he continues to grow and be well. **to which I saw him today. I was just the same as always w/ him. it's so hard to think that he dropped me like a hot potato. I even said to myself, "why are u nice to him?" and I heard "because what would Jesus do?" sigh.. maturity. sucks sometimes!**


I pray for my parents.. my children.. my co-workers & their families. There is a lot of people that I pray for that I've met through my job and where I live.. I pray for the widow of John Weaver, she's a sweetheart and her life has changed drastically. I pray for my neighbor, dealing w/ losing her husband just before Christmas. There's been many tragedies in da'burg lately and I pray for the friends and families involved..

I pray for the EMTs, nurses, doctors, and the surgeons that God guides their hands, hearts, and minds.

I pray for our military ~ bring them home safely and let them know they are loved and appreciated.

I also pray for the government.. a big change is in order and I pray that God intercedes and starts righting the wrongs and putting people in that will be JUST and FAIR instead of corrupt and greedy.

These are just scratching the surface! At any given moment I'll remember someone I've forgotten and ask God to watch over them.. I ask for forgiveness for being so stupid and selfish and so human.. I forget what I'm here for and what God wants me to do gets clouded by the wickedness around me.. and I get sad. I can only imagine how God must feel when we turn our backs on Him.. sad times infinity! I pray I never turn my back on Him ever again. I'd be hopelessly lost w/out Him.

Rant.. Rave.. and Inspire!!!

Just want to put this out there to those of you going thru something that MIGHT cripple you into believing that it will never get any better... several years ago the WORST thing ever!!!! happened to me & my family. I made a decision, loved someone blindly and SERIOUSLY took my family to the edge of DESTRUCTION because of it..  did this stop me from living? or trying to better the quality of life around me & my children? Did it stop me from believing in my GOD~ my Savior! the one that rescued me from the darkest time of our lives?! NO!!!! is my life much better now?! YES!!!! do I still have hope ?? YES!!!! Would I recognize a bad situation like that if it ever tried to happen again ? YES!!!!! It's up to US!!! God gives us FREE WILL for a reason because He wants US to be STRONG in HIM and have faith in Him and OURSELVES to LEARN!!!!!! from our mistakes and shortcomings in life and do EVERYTHING we can to fix it and RELY on God's help & blessings to accomplish it. Yes, I've been married 3 times.. Yes, I've been divorced 3 times.. YES I've been born again many times.. Yes, I've had ups / downs w/ my family, friends, and co-workers.. DOES THAT STOP ME FROM MOVING ON?! NO!!!!!!!! Life will hand us some of the crappiest things because Satan is trying to keep us from doing what God wants us to do.. I'm sorry Satan, but you've lost this battle NOW AND ALWAYS WILL!!!! Jesus died for me, shed blood & sacrificed Himself so YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME. So, if I have to suck it up, deal with it, accept it, and keep moving on.. SO BE IT! God's "got my 6" so I can hold my head up and keep looking forward to better days ahead when things don't go so poorly. THANK YOU JESUS!!!! You're my ROCK, my SWORD, and my SHIELD!!! AMEN!

~~Good things can't grow w/out a little fertilizer!!!!~~

Full Moons.. *sigh*

So.... yesterday I saw 'him'. Twice. I never would have guessed that this would be like this.. he said he's not ready for a relationship and just quit talking to me. I guess maybe I should get over it.. move on.. and I'm fighting the idea that he's not into me anymore because he's found someone else. IDK.. I don't want to be that kind of woman. Anyway.. so.. emotions welled up inside me, heart was POUNDING! and I just couldn't help but release it.. right there.. at work.. *sigh* silly me.

So I came home and FINALLY got to cleaning. NOOOO I mean CLEANING! I took a bucket, a rag, and some lovely febreze infused Mr. Clean AND!!!! scrubbed down walls, moved furniture, wiped it all down.. and re-arranged the living room and dining room. ahhh that feels better..

Not really.. I couldn't sleep very well last night.. stupid full moons.. I love them, especially when it's cold out like last night .. BEAUTIFUL & when you breath in the CRISP air almost cuts your lungs.. LOVE IT!!! I can't help but wonder and ask .. God.. I'm swamped with praying for others everyday.. and thanks to the experience of dating someone, liking them, and getting .. well.. ditched.. I'm just curious where it is You want me to go and do next?!

Should I revert to the thinking that I don't deserve a relationship?
Should I consider dating & relationships to be a distraction?
Should I find forget about it forever?

you see.. I'm the kind of person that gets filled with curiosity and when things are left unanswered I get... 'funny'.. I get.. silly.. and I start running around hap-hazard.. basically like a chicken w/ its head cut off. I don't know what to do so I just busy myself with so much other things that I think I won't run into the same kind of issue again. LIKE: cleaning my house, ignoring my phone, facebook, and thinking of taking a job in a office cubicle where I don't have to talk to or see ppl ever again.

I know that some of my friends like to say things like...

"there is someone out there pining for you just as much as you are pining for him."
"Your time will come and you will have a love like you've never known."
"you deserve so much better & it will come. You just need to keep waiting."

etc etc etc etc etc...

Well.. I hate to say it.. but let's get real here. Those things are FED into us via cheesy stupid romance movies (which I love) and we just EAT IT UP! Men know exactly what to say to us to get us hooked and then WHAMM~O!! their true selves are revealed and they just don't think or care the same way we do. NEVER will any mortal man live up to the standards of LOVING, PROVIDING, CARING, FORGIVING, and EVERYTHING ELSE as my Jesus does. He's all I need. AND if He is all I have for the rest of my life, then I know I've been taken care of by the B E S T !

So.. I'm back to where I started.. but it's a NEW YEAR so.. anything can happen. I'm excited for the changes happening in other's lives.. friends are getting married, having babies, and moving to bigger and better homes, jobs, and more.. I'm proud of them, HAPPY for them, and wish them the BEST (and will continue to PRAY for them) as I have done so from the start...

so.. for the "don't you think you deserve to share in the excitement for that kind of happiness too?" question

I only have one reply::::::

"Eh, I really don't know about that.. God will provide for me if HE thinks I need it. In the meantime, I'm happy with what He brings into my life and sharing the joys of others is just fine with me."

On and On..

Well, Christmas was awesome! Only there was a sadness mixed in with the whole joyous chaos....

 Here's the timeline.. on Saturday - the guy I was dating couldn't make it for our date.. no biggie.. I was worried about him. We talked on Sunday.. set up a breakfast date on Wed. I was EXCITED!!!

On Monday, I got the news that my Pap Wagner has lymphoma--to be treated IMMEDIATELY. *sigh*

So here I go.. into the week feeling emotional and unsure of ANYTHING.. and I got not one reply to any message I sent to my 'guy'. Hmmmmmm--- Wednesday I had off and was showered, dressed, and ready for my breakfast date w/ him.. ready to escape from the emotions and embrace some happiness & butterflies..

He never showed. No text. No call. "Oh well," I said.. "He just had to work that's all." I sent him a few messages asking if something was wrong and what's up, etc.. nothing.. Hmmmmmm

So... Onward we go.. I'm praying CONSTANTLY!!! I have several friends that got engaged, married, and are pregnant and making all kinds of lovely announcements.. plus many that need prayers of healing for many illnesses and depression and relationship issues etc etc the list is ENDLESS.  God is in control and knows the needs.. Let Him take control and His will be done AMEN.

So finally!!! Christmas Eve candlelight service @ Montandon.. AWESOME!!! I spent the night at Mom & Dad's.. Christmas morning service @ Montandon.. FANTASTIC. Then we had lunch at my Dad's parents.. My Pap looked good, was in great spirits, and said an AWESOME heartfelt and personal prayer.. made me well up w/ emotion. His faith has taken LEAPS and BOUNDS over the years and I honestly believe he knows JESUS and the LOVE He has for him... Still.. Pap looked a little pale.. and I prayed in my heart that he will be strong and that Jesus will help him fight.

I needed a distraction.. I sent "Merry Christmas" to my guy... nothing... for a while... then.. I got my answer... It's over.. He isn't ready for a relationship.. *sigh* danngit!!!! I let myself give too much too soon and scared him off. WAY TO GO ME!!!! *smacks head*

The next few days have been a bit of a blur. I'm tired. I'm emotional. I feel a bit heartbroken, but ok.. I know & can be confident that I AM READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP. Now.. the right one just has to come into my life.... *sigh*

I hear songs about love on the radio and I get a little weepy.. I enjoyed my time dating this guy. He is nice, interesting, and seriously broke down some of the stereotypes about men that I had built up. It's not his fault. It's not mine. It's just not the right time or place right now. I accept that.. and I'm excited for my next opportunity w/ someone..

So.. for Christmas my Mom got me a new computer.. so you guys are stuck w/ me posting annoying things on Facebook and BLOGGING!!!!! :) Much love <3 and prayers to you all.

SAY WHAT?!

Today was a nice, long & busy day at work. I opened the store - so that means I'm there by 7 am. My co-worker came in to run register and I started inventory in the paint department. It's not that bad and I'm almost done! That's so satisfying to know that the department isn't supposed to be done until October 22nd and I'm more than 1/2 way finished with it!!

So, I'm doing inventory and minding my own business.. and in walks in my Amish admirer - you know.. that one that got married a while back but still has a bit of a fancy for me. He still gets talky with me when he gets the chance. I hide... and of course I took a good 'ribbing' from my co-workers on why I was hiding etc..  "you know April, you missed your chance at him."

SAY WHAT?!?!

*whew* he's gone.. ok - - back to work... the rest of the day went pretty quick. I did harbor some interruption from a frequent caller - customer. He asks for me by name. He's not a bad person, but likes to call me hon, sweetie, babe and such.. He called a total of 4 or 5 times for me today. Every time it was for merchandise to be held at the register for him etc etc.. I obliged because that's part of my job. I don't mind it, except I was busy with doing inventory and it was disruptive. So on his last call he asked me if I would be at the register - I said no - they have me doing inventory. ** this part is where I freaked out** "Well, you have my cell phone number, text me a picture of you so I know which girl you are the next time I come in."***

SAY WHAT?!?!

umm.. uh.. er.. eh.. "well, I don't have my cellphone at work because we get in trouble for using them while on the clock. I left it at home."  I don't think he liked that response. "oh come on.. that's BS." well.. needless to say I told him that he was to call before coming in next time and I would introduce myself. That seemed to appease him since he claims that his curiosity was strictly for the purpose of recognizing me so he could thank me for all the effort I'd been doing to help him. *seems normal enough, right?!*

*shudders*

So, I finished my inventory for the day & my co-worker left --- leaving me at the register for the rest of the evening. Not long after I got there a fella came in - buying roof paint and such -- HE WAS MISSING AT LEAST THREE TEETH ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF HIS MOUTH -- nice guy - friendly & polite. We were going thru his transaction and he suddenly stopped and said "wow, you look different from the last time I was in here." ok.. I'll bite.. "how's that? when were you in last?" and he looks at me, you can smell the smoke coming from his ears thinking.. "about a month or so ago. you've lost a lot of weight." *ME: BIG GRIN* "why yes I have, thank you for noticing. 48 lbs to be exact." **I love shocking people with that.** "WOW! that's alot! Good for you!" he said, "what's the hubby think of that?!"

SAY WHAT?!?!

I quickly replied, "oh yea. its great." I DIDN'T LIE TO HIM NOR DID I TELL HIM THE TRUTH. I continued, "I'm not doing it for that reason anyway. This is for me & being healthier."  That seemed to appease him and keep him from pursuing any interest.. with the exception of saying "I sure wish I was younger and I would certainly chase you." *sigh* "ha ha ha Thanks. Have a nice day." is my safe reply.

So, later on - I received a phone call from a customer looking for a certain brand of something. I find the product, the price & ask if he wants me to hold it at the register.. "yes, please" is the reply.. Ok. Later, the customer comes in.. a familiar face. Comes to the register and smiles and says "thank you for holding those for me. that's very sweet of you & I think that's above and beyond." NICE! "you're welcome. it's not a problem." is my reply. "It's the little things that women do that make them desirable" is what he says next.

SAY WHAT?!?

"That's very nice of you. Honestly, it wasn't any trouble. Thank you. Have a nice evening." is how I thought I thwarted that..  As he waved 'cya later' to me ( a few others at the register area) I noticed his wedding band. MARRIED. I don't know.. but it made me even more uncomfortable about the comment he made.. knowing he was married. *sigh*

Oh yea - - and I don't want to forget the mother / son pair that were in.. first they hit up a co-worker of mine about some velcro - to hang a sign that his sister recently gave to him -- before she was incarcerated.. blah blah blah

SAY WHAT?!?!

Yes! he was in public - openly speaking to a random stranger about his personal family matters. *shakes head* what is that?! So they come up to the register - - after looking at every nook & cranny of the store.. the man leans on my counter (*the mother pays for their things*) and he starts messing with her - trying to make himself look all tough & big etc etc (*TRUST ME! I am allergic to BS and I started sneezing!!!*) So, I'm finishing the transaction and he leans over the counter, winks at me and calls me sweetie. (*GAG*) "I'll be back again, without her (meaning his mother) to interrupt talking to you."

SAY WHAT?!?!


*sigh* what a day. 7am to 7 pm. I don't even know what to say... at one point my boss actually took hold of me and was looking me over for the sign that said "psycho magnet" on it. I don't know where it is.. I'm convinced its tattooed on my forehead in only ink that psycho's can read. I seem to attract a type of man that mistakes my friendliness for flirtation. It happens ALL THE TIME. I am not afraid to talk to people - my customer service skills have been honed over the years to smile! be polite! and the kind of person I am - I am sensitive to heartbreak and feel compassion for mankind (GENERALLY SPEAKING). This combination apparently means (to some people) that it's ok to be disgusting & creepy - talk dirty to me and say super gross things (even though they're married or definitely have no chance with me romantically) and take advantage of my kindness.


Not sure what I'm supposed to take from all of this.. but I know one thing for sure: IT SURE MAKES FOR AN INTERESTING DAY AT WORK!!!!

Catching Up

Well - I can't believe it's 10 days since my last blog?! What?! I usually always have plenty to say--trust me!! This can't be right?! LOL

The weekend after my last blog I had off for the entire weekend and I spent it visiting with my friend Melissa (from www.lifewithlissy.com) at her house - decorating a float and participating in the Milton Harvest Festival parade. That was SOOO much fun! I dressed as a big banana. It was hilarious! It got people's attention. After church on Sunday, we all went up to Sullivan Co. to Melissa's dad's farm to harvest, wash, and grade pumpkins. THAT WAS THE MOST FUN EVER!!! I can't wait to do that again. I'm such a farm girl at heart :) I can thank my grandparents & mother for that.. I know I didn't get a chance to spend much time on their farms, but it's their stories-experiences-example that keep me leaning towards that way of life. I just love it!

***SIDE NOTE***
Another interesting thing happened that weekend.. while visiting a local store, I ran into a person that I know from working at Cole's. Got a chance to talk & catch up, but I was saddened to hear of some very troubling & sorrowful things happening in their life. I offered my phone number as a line of communication because naturally being the person I am & going thru what I've been thru-- I thought I could help. Everyday since then I've heard from this person via text and the conversation has been a much appreciated and a welcomed thing! The troublesome issues in their life have not changed one bit but I know that having someone to talk to helps, even if it just about what's on tv, what the evening plans are, and what's for supper.. I pray for the situation every day. God hears their cry. It weighs heavy on my heart. I've started to get to know this person much better and I am super glad for a new friendship. It gives me a chance to be a listener--something God knows I need help with--and a chance to use some of my experience and knowledge with someone and it's not a romantic relationship (*which can be so stressful*). I'm beginning to understand why God has placed me at Cole's Hardware and why I've not been able to move on - away from it.

Every day there is someone that comes in that needs prayer:  sometimes it's a co-worker, sometimes it's a complete stranger...  All I know is that I've been praying for others more and more with each day.. 

^^^^^Just yesterday - a retired teacher that I had in school came in. She is a woman that's never married. She's lived with her mother & taken care of her the entire time.  Her mother's 94th birthday is on Friday. Her mother is getting weaker and weaker. I was saddened to hear of this & the stress that has been put upon her over the years while caring for her mother.. watching her progressively get worse. I told her that I would be remembering her & her mother in prayer.. *mind you- I had no idea what faith or religion (if any) that this woman believed in* HER FACE LIGHT UP LIKE CHRISTMAS MORNING! and she smiled at me in a way that she NEVER smiled at me before and said "Thank you. You can't understand how much I appreciate that." I COMPLETELY PRAISE AND THANK  God for the ability to pray for her. This woman was a .. well.. let's just say.. she was a difficult educator. LOL Now as an adult, I can understand how & why she may have been so 'grumpy' especially during the years leading to her retirement.. and the stress she must have felt in & out of school. AND this experience was brought to me by my WONDERFUL & LOVING GOD and my job at Cole's... which HE granted me. ^^^^^^^ TOTALLY AWESOME!!!

I am fully comfortable with where I am-- EXCEPT--I've gotten out of the habit of a regular workout 8^( I don't know when it happened exactly, but it did. I indulge in soda (*more than I should*) and I haven't been on my bike *except to ride quickly to Sheetz & back* in almost 2 weeks. Tomorrow is Wednesday and so far all I've done this week was mow my yard & clean like a mad fiend around my place. I think Wednesday is a good day to get back on track. Granted, I've not been over eating or cheating with too many un-healthy choices in my diet, but still... I need to be more focused and dedicated to improving my all around general health & fitness. IMPROVE THE TEMPLE!  preparing for battle & movement... God could lead me to the Congo someday and I want to be READY!!! LOL

SPEAKING OF CLEANING!!!! ......I have done wonders with my cleaning. I've downsized my cupboard clutter and a few issues in the kids' rooms. I'm hoping to start work on the closet in Lily's room this week AND finish up the outside pre-winter clean up and organization. I want to have an organized stack of firewood *for fall firepit season* and have the flower beds weeded and cut back etc etc. I got the bright idea that in the spring I'd like a veggie & herb garden & compost pile. We'll see if I can get it done. 

As for other things, come the end of the week I'm expecting to OWN a washer & dryer for my place. The one I have now came with the place and broke almost .. eh.. over... well... about 2 years ago. Since then, I've been hand washing the clothes in the bathtub & a plastic tub etc.. and rinsing & wringing them out and hanging them to dry either on a clothes rack in the tub (on rainy days) or on the washline I built out back. *WHICH.. needs some 'tweeking' - I'd like to have 3 strings instead of two & I'd like to tighten them all up a bit & rearrange them* ANYWAY - my friend's mom is getting rid of her washer & dryer- I made an offer & that set is to arrive HOPEFULLY on Sunday afternoon 8^) I'm so blasted excited that I can't hardly contain myself. I've been without for so long-- I'm not going to know what to do with myself if I have a working washer & dryer and not have to work so hard for clean clothes! WOW!!!

Also, I came to the mind-set that this place could potentially be the last place I live for the rest of my life. Being as small as it is-that means some of this 'stuff' must go! With the huge flood that devastated all those people's homes and lives-- my "I'll just keep it in case I ever get a bigger place" stuff can be donated to help them out. This includes the clothing that my children and I can no longer wear. I'm pretty sure my closet, drawers, and storage will be emptied by the end of the month (October). I'm on a mission to completely get rid of every single shred of un-necessary items. The stuff I've kept at my parents from when I've moved various times & toys from when the kids were babies--it can all go! I want to keep just a few things for a 'memoir' type box or plastic tote. Something for me to go thru from time to time and remember things (good & bad). Everything else?! Eh.. it can go!

I know that the possibility of moving and owning my own bigger place is real. I am looking forward to that day--and want to move as little as possible if that happens. I do not want to continue to acquire a lot of "stuff" and have to move it all. Keeping it simple is a much more logical and practical way of life & thinking for me. *coming from a long line of hoarders & pack-rats.. yea.. I'd say that's progress*LOL

*********my last blog was about hearts.. and the matters thereof********** I wanted to follow up on that just a bit. Since writing that blog - I've had a completely change of attitude & way of thinking about being in a relationship and the question of whether I should still have hope or not.. my new motto for that:

I'm happy & blessed loving the Lord & if HE chooses to bring someone into my life great! if HE chooses not to bring someone into my life great! No matter what!!!!- I will love HIM and praise HIM and seek HIM.

Since that revelation-- inside me has awakened a small spark.. *where the dark cloud of worry & doubt once was*... I don't know what you want to call it.. hope? I'm not sure... but inside of me I hear "today could be the day"... and that's SO exciting! No matter what it means..

TODAY COULD BE THE DAY....... that Jesus returns for His children!
TODAY COULD BE THE DAY..... that God brings another person to me to pray for.
TODAY COULD BE THE DAY.... that I learn of something new to praise God for His wondrous works
TODAY COULD BE THE DAY....that I get to witness to someone that needs to hear God loves them.
TODAY COULD BE THE DAY..... that God brings another miracle or blessing into my life.

See what I mean?! I'm not usually at a loss for words.. LOL I told you at the beginning and it's true at the end.. I'm a talkative person & blessed that God made me that way.   However, it's after midnight and I am satisfied w/ my 'catch up'.. I'll have to get back into the habit of more routine blogging.... LOL

Hmm.. a blog? Ok - I got it!!

Today was a full day at work. I began my day at 7am and did a lot of inventory today. I got to the hardest part -- keys. *ugh* It was tedious, but I got it done. What hindered me the most today was being interrupted by customers. Time was flying by so quickly that my head was nearly spinning.

Around mid-way through my key inventory and I heard a jovial & familiar voice! Jerry.. a semi-regular customer with whom I've shared my weight loss success with every so often. He's co-owner of a company that makes dehydrated fruit snacks for active lifestyles. It is called TRYCHIPS. He gave me his business card some time ago, but I had forgotten all about it. It was good to see him! Today - he came bearing gifts. THREE bags of his dehydrated chips. I was making him a copy of a key when another local customer came by and they started to talking. Somehow, Jerry turned the conversation to me & my weight loss. He said, "You should talk to her about it.. she's lost 37 lbs." and I laughed.. "Jerry, it's up to 47 lbs now. ha ha" and his jaw about hit the floor! I walked over to them and luckily I was wearing pants that I used to completely fill out and I stood there PROUDLY showing how my pants are barely hanging on me anymore and the way my thighs no longer FILL out the jeans. It made me feel good.

I ended up taking a brief break shortly after they left & we had finished up our conversation.. My eyes glanced at the bags Jerry brought for me. Curiosity got the best of me. I opened the bag and my nose filled with a delicious aroma of several different delicious fruit smells. The bag I opened is called the ASPIRE bag, including the fruits: apple, apricot, pineapple, banana, and pomegranate. I started to munch. HOLY CRAP! My mouth filled with the most delicious and refreshing snack I've had in a long time! The best thing about these snacks --  ONLY 100 CALORIES PER BAG!  and they are nearly the size of a MiddlesWarth chip bag! YUM YUM!!! I suggest you check them out for yourself! www.trychips.com It's truly amazing! I can't wait to stock up on these yummy LOCAL snacks and include them in my routine diet / workout!

I've recently been in a rut with my diet & exercise. This Thursday's weigh in was a gain of 2.5 lbs. I've been in 'fasting mode' since drinking a lot of water to shed the water weight. I haven't done a lengthy workout in almost a week. The rain dampened my bike rides. I just didn't feel like working out around the children. I did walk and do a minor bike ride last week. I believe it was ... Tuesday? It was only 3 or 4 miles if I remember correctly.

I finished work on a high note! I felt awesome. I knew I had to get back into the swing of my workouts, etc. My calorie intakes have been fine but I haven't been working out with it so I fear that I will lose momentum. I couldn't let it go another day. I hopped on my bike right after work and managed to ride just over 3 miles tonight!! It felt great!!! I just wish I could have gone further and longer.

Shortly after finishing my workout my Mom picked me up to spend some time w/ them in Vicksburg. I did eat 2 small pieces of pizza-which were yummy. I sprinkled them with hot peppers and garlic to aid in digestion. If you put them together they would equal one full slice. I was proud of myself. I didn't pig out and I felt great! If I would have had a flashlight I probably could have walked or jogged home.

I am glad to be back on track. I can't wait for Thursday's weigh in! I hope to see those last 3 lbs gone!!!! That would bring me up to a grand total of 50lbs lost! It's so exciting! Then it's just another 40lb by Christmas! I can do it! I will do it! God will grant me the determination and willpower - like HE has been the last few months! I have faith in HIM. HE has faith in me! I can do it!

I would post a before and after picture, but I think in order to see that best you should go to my friend - and inspiration - www.lifewithlissy.com to see the blog she did on me. She says I'm one of the people that inspire her... when in fact, she inspires me. She never quits. I can't wait to see her this weekend... coming.. at the Milton Harvest Festival! It is going to be AWESOME!