Holy Crap! I still have a blog?!

I just can't believe it..
Ya know a lot has happened since my last blog..
Long story short - I met someone but you'll never guess what?! almost a YEAR to the DAY of him moving in w/ me.. HE LEFT ME. Imagine that?! He was away for a while & called me.. 10:30 pm and says.. "I think we should break up."
Really? You're really going to do this? um..

Well.. that was in July.. by Aug when he was back in town (a week 1/2 after the break up) I had his things packed and ready to roll..

I've been going back to church.. the church I had a vision I'd get married in. . back in Forest Hill w/ Pastor Butch Woolsey & a great crew of folks that I've known a long time .. and some that I've just met but feel at home around.

Kids are doing great. Daniel's a FRESHMAN! AHHHhhhhhh!!!!
Lily's in 8th grade.. *sigh* Both have adjusted fairly well to the break up & the "return to normalcy"..

There's a bit of a void there.. for me it was the feeling of hope.. hope for a life w/ someone to share things.. Hope that I'd never have to go to a funeral alone again.. or worse.. a wedding alone.. *sigh*
Oh well.. These things happen I guess.

I'm still pushing forward as always.. I'm stronger than I ever was & God knows the need.. He'll fill it if/when the time is right <3


****Here's a little something I wrote back in 2007 that fits perfectly****
"Out of the ashes.. from being burned.. rises up a NEW life.. a NEW being.. like a forest fire.. it can be better than what was before.. give it time, keep the Faith, hold the Truth in your heart.. and you will see that you are stronger, wiser, and more equipped for a better life. . one that you're meant to be living."



Love to you all --- Glad to be back :)

April W.

and the list keeps growing...

I feel so selfish being so emotional and filled w/ all kinds of thoughts...

The list of folks to pray for keeps growing and growing.. It saddens me. I am worried that 2012 will not just be a year filled w/ excitement such as weddings and babies.. but I worry about the grief it may bring too. I know that if God brings you to it, He'll bring you thru it.. It's hard to be thankful when people you know and love are in pain.

Here is what my list of DAILY prayers contains.....

Dad~ been having issues w/ stomach and feeling sick.
Gpa Walter~ tumor on kidney, needs removal.
Pap Wagner~ lymphoma cancer, taking chemo and getting over pnemonia
Ken R~ support in prayer for life & being supportive to Pap W.
Rose G ~ kidney tumor & the options to come.

I have several friends that I pray for daily, for different reasons.. those I'll withhold names because they're too numerous to list.. AND I get a DAILY list from my friend / brother Butch Woolsey w/ others that I pray for on the spot.

Weddings being planned for 2012 and 2013~~ joyous and blessed!
Babies being born in 2012.. AND those trying!!! <3
*Monica, Becca, Marlene* Jen had her baby :)

I pray for the guy I dated in Dec. I hope that life is treating him well and that he continues to grow and be well. **to which I saw him today. I was just the same as always w/ him. it's so hard to think that he dropped me like a hot potato. I even said to myself, "why are u nice to him?" and I heard "because what would Jesus do?" sigh.. maturity. sucks sometimes!**


I pray for my parents.. my children.. my co-workers & their families. There is a lot of people that I pray for that I've met through my job and where I live.. I pray for the widow of John Weaver, she's a sweetheart and her life has changed drastically. I pray for my neighbor, dealing w/ losing her husband just before Christmas. There's been many tragedies in da'burg lately and I pray for the friends and families involved..

I pray for the EMTs, nurses, doctors, and the surgeons that God guides their hands, hearts, and minds.

I pray for our military ~ bring them home safely and let them know they are loved and appreciated.

I also pray for the government.. a big change is in order and I pray that God intercedes and starts righting the wrongs and putting people in that will be JUST and FAIR instead of corrupt and greedy.

These are just scratching the surface! At any given moment I'll remember someone I've forgotten and ask God to watch over them.. I ask for forgiveness for being so stupid and selfish and so human.. I forget what I'm here for and what God wants me to do gets clouded by the wickedness around me.. and I get sad. I can only imagine how God must feel when we turn our backs on Him.. sad times infinity! I pray I never turn my back on Him ever again. I'd be hopelessly lost w/out Him.