Chains

One of my favorite songs to play on the guitar is Chains, by the Beatles.. It's a fun song. It's a love song actually. (lyrics) --> Chains of love.. got a hold on me.. yeah! ! I've never understood why people compare love and their partners to chains?! That doesn't make any sense to me. The ole ball & chain. . they used those on prisoners to keep them from running.. I just can't understand how that ended up being used as a term for when people get married. It's almost as if you are supposed to get married to keep the person from running away. THAT makes me sick. I don't like that at all. If you chose to get married, shouldn't you want to stay??!! 

My mind continues... Chains can be very useful. Growing up, a good chain has always been seen as a helpful & handy tool. You can hook a chain up to a tractor & pull things out of snow and mud. Chains are made to be strong, unfailing, and stable. WOW! Ok. . now I'm thinking chains of love (song) makes perfect sense. Chains of love would simulate a bond so strong that it wouldn't be broken easily, right?!

I've been thinking.. (hm, imagine that?!)
Chains (positive) versus Chains (negative) OH BOY! !

Negative chains = "Chains" of destruction,  I've had a few: drinking, drugs & selfishness and that's just the a few. I've prayed earnestly & honestly that I be released of those chains. The kind that entrap you out of an unrighteous path. The kind that keep you from living a decent life. It's a work in progress but I have confidence that my life is completely turned from those things. I've been practicing self-control, discipline, perseverance, and attempting to be patient and see things through God's eyes.

So, in essence, I've been chained to the positive/the good/the righteous. Right?! Well, it is true. I'm grateful for my Savior, His Father, and for the blessings & lessons.

(More thinking and stronger praying)
I feel... boring. I feel.. trapped. I feel... what's the word I'm looking for... I don't know.. chained.

It's like keeping a dog in the yard. You know there's adequate food, water, housing and room for it. It's being well taken care of and socialized. It's a happy dog. It has no reason to run away or to stray from the people it loves / the ones providing for it. Yet, for some reason, there is this need for a leash/chain to keep it.

This.. is how I feel. Daily. I can almost feel it physically.
I can't help but think: "why must I wear this chain? I'm not running away. I'm not misbehaving. I'm not going to leave where I'm happy and loved." 
It's stupid. It's not necessary. Why can't I be free to roam w/in the set boundaries?

Do not misunderstand me. I am not depressed. I am not miserable. I am not unhappy.
I am quite content, pleased, and joyous that He continues to provide and I'm so thankful that it continues, unfailing. God has been so very good and I trust and believe that He will never stop. NEVER.

Right now, I see no change. I see no opportunity to be anything but who I am, where I am, and keep looking for opportunities that will bring pleasure to His glory. This is NOT a bad thing necessarily. No change = stability. Stability is good. I'm not asking for tragedy or strive or trial the patience or strength to have to endure it. I'm just curious why there hasn't been an opportunity to extend the leash a little? Or better yet.. take it off?!!

We've been set free of sin through Jesus, once He's received and we become NEW through our relationship with Him.

I should be comforted by the security of it all. I should be thankful that I've not been allowed to stray out of the boundaries. Maybe new things will develop w/in the boundaries and I won't notice the chains?

Maybe, I'm just losing my mind and the cheese is finally slipping off the cracker?!!
I don't really know for sure. . I can't really tell anymore. LOL