Reflection

Interesting week & it's only Tuesday LOL !!!
I'm very happy. Feeling very blessed ! God is good & I pray He's got great things in store!

I came home from my son's Court of Honor (Boy Scouts) tonight. I was so proud and had a lot of fun. I took a friend of mine & his son. :) Pretty sure he's going to be a new recruit :) I'm so excited to help them join into this circle of friendship, brotherhood, and family !

After tagging the photos, I was scrolling through FB (again) and I happened upon a quote..

It's a good quote. Quite true to how I feel. However, as a Christian woman I should feel loved w/out the presence of a man in my life. I've often felt that God's molding me into the type of woman I need to be to find the one He has picked for me. I sometimes wonder if that's actually going to happen. I don't want to rush into anything!!!! However.. there are moments.. especially when I read things like this.. that I'm reminded .. I'm still waiting.  I often dream of a man that I'm able to love freely, with every bit of the love God grants me, and that he in return will love me just as much.

Proverbs 31 is very HOT right now. There's an entire ministry focused on it. You can find it EVERYWHERE !!! Why? Because starting about verse 10 it starts listing qualities that make a 'righteous' wife.  For already married women, it's something to strive for in your marriage. An actual list -- of ways you can measure yourself to attributes of a Godly wife - worthy of love & praise. For those of us in the single circuit and particularly in the divorced crowd - - they can be a reminder of how much we "just didn't make it " .. Being single (essentially since 2007) and never experiencing a love that was so great that I could honestly be 100 %  - I took a good long look at this list.  . I pray I have what it takes.. and that those qualities get noticed by the one that's been waiting for me. . like I him. The one that's ready to give his heart to someone that will value it, support it, and encourage it. Someone that will receive mine and do the same.

I don't want to seem down / heavy. Honestly, I've been so happy the past 3 months. Pretty dang close to the happiest I've ever been. I feel SOLID on my foundation of Jesus & His promises. I'm praying. I'm not vulnerable anymore. I am strong. I am loved. I am protected by the Blood. I refuse to re-build the walls but also pray to guard my heart. The thought of love makes me just a little weepy, scared, and yet.. it's something my heart yearns for (*even though I do NOT outwardly admit this nor do I want to show it-- in fear I appear desperate*).  I do not feel "single". I feel.. reserved: like going to K-mart & putting the perfect Christmas gift on layaway, making regular payments, trusting it will bring great happiness and joy someday.

Call me crazy but I believe in love.
Despite how many times I've failed, been hurt, bruised, and broken.. I still believe in love.
Pretty incredible.

Loving Life & Fun Times !

This morning I was barely able to get out of bed. I had a 'family fun day/night' hangover. We had a blast yesterday !! I was babysitting my young pal: Aiden, who keeps us hopping. We went to McDonald's, the block party (which wasn't much of a party), the Thrift Store, joined up w/ my friend Michael & his son Caleb and the park AND did some local shopping. We later returned to my house & the party continued. I made supper of London broil in the dutch oven, broccoli & cauliflower in cheese sauce and we played ! Guess Who was first, then we started Phase 10 . Whoa! It was probably 11 pm or so when we finally finished. You should have seen the popcorn and the smarties scattered about ! It was so much fun!! We were tossing it at each other trying to get it into our mouths. :D :D   I LOVE IT !!!!

Life is meant to be lived. I'm not as uptight as I once was.. "Messes can be cleaned up but memories last forever ! !" I honestly had one of the best times last night :) again !! My friend Michael & his son Caleb bring so much fun & laughter to our lives that I just can't express the gratitude I have for our friendship!


I have been praying a lot ! God is working miracles all around and I can't express enough for those that aren't seeking -- YOU ARE MISSING OUT !!! I've been so overjoyed w/ love, happiness, joy, and faith that I can't help but love this Earthly time I get to share w/ others. God is so good ! All the time !!

Hard to imagine / remember times in my life that were not so good. My memories are fading of the hard / bad times because I'm so overwhelmed w/ joy & happiness. Well, there's still stress that creeps in every now / then but THANK GOD my life is arranged by HIS will that I can't stay stressed / overwhelmed for long. There are people in my life that I know that HE put there for that reason.

They say 'Time heals all wounds' - That is NOT true. God heals the wounds and we have to want to be healed. Sometimes it just takes more time than expected. I could reflect on a few "bad times" in my life but I choose NOT to harp on the negative. Would I like to forget they happened ? No. I need to remember from time to time b/c I do NOT want history to repeat itself. Have I forgiven ? YES!!! I have !!!  God has been gracious & merciful for my ignorant mistakes. I am happy to seek Him and His will.  Will it be all rainbows & peaches & cream ? NO ! Highly doubt it ! But will I be steadfast in LOVE, FAITH, and BELIEF? ! YOU BET YOUR PATOOTIE I WILL !!! Why would I turn my back on the BEST thing that has ever happened to me ? That would be the dumbest mistake I ever make.

So.. while time keeps on ticking away - it's the end of October ALREADY !!!  I choose to look forward, keep my eyes and heart OPEN, seek the positive, and remain steadfast in the comfort that God is in control AND enjoy the good times He's bringing to us.  Who knows what else He might bring ?! That's exciting ! I love adventure ! I love surprises ! Thank you God ! You are amazing !

Today's Daily Bread scripture just about fits the bill here so I'll share it w/ you : Proverbs 4:23-27

"(23)Keep your heart with all diligence, For out of it spring the issues of life. (24)Put away from you a deceitful mouth, and put perverse lips far from you. (25)Let your eyes look straight ahead, and your eyelids look right before you. (26) Ponder the path of your feet, And let all your ways be established. (27)Do not turn to the right or the left; Remove your foot from evil."

Keep looking ahead ! Keep looking up ! <3 God will always be there <3
If you continue to look back & re-live your tortured past.. You'll never get anywhere.